Back Into the Fire?

I've been shamed.

I’ve been shamed.

[warning: rant ahead]

So for those who know me, I used to be in the prime condition of my life — right right, before you say anything…yes, everyone has been at some point, and/or why am I evening mentioning this? Well, I moved across the country and tried to stay in shape, but for some reason motivation slowly disappeared and now I hadn’t worked out fully all summer (~3 months).

In this period of time, I’ve gone up a half a pant to a pant size (admitting this right now is a bit tough), my figure has stopped being as muscular, and what muscle definition I did still have had long since atrophied. I’ve become a once-was. [Right, what do those sayings even mean?]

 

It’s about time to stop this madness! (It’s so easy to make excuses not to work out, right? It’s easy to make excuses not to eat well/healthy, right? Well, Lily, this is your straight-up reminder to stop wavering and saying, “Just one more bite, or ‘I’ll work that off'”. LOL. Went climbing on Monday and boy did it feel good. While I have dropped down from a V4-ish level now to a V1 – V2 again, it’s alright. Time will tell. Although, lifting right afterwards may not have been the best idea I’ve had. Haven’t been able to move my elbow joints (so now I’ve taken two days off). Ah, is it one step at a time? And just keep moving forward? Hope so!

 

The 15lb weights in the picture are from what I did on Monday. I have never been so embarrassed to be at a gym; even when I first began I’d never lifted 15lbs (instead starting with 20lbs and 25lbs); but everything hurts from just 15. GAHHH! SO WEAK!

 

Okay, rant over.

Lament of Labwork (1 of many to come)

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cuz ALL THE PLATES! (all rights reserved: L Yang)

Labwork finally started up again. Who knew?

After a fulfilling summer down at NC State doing awesome data-mining, social media, and food safety related projects (which I am still doing now, but on the side), I’m now back at VTech starting my thesis research.

What am I doing exactly? I’m not too sure…and here is where the frustration (more with myself, than not) lies. As many graduate students can relate to, the thing about doing a project is that (a) you never know when/if you will succeed or fail; (b) if you haven’t done something in awhile, the confusion of not remembering certain methodologies (added to the thought that you should already know what’s going on) can be disheartening and even tragic. I’m definitely falling into this latter boat, at the moment.

From the outside, my project seems simple enough. Tomatoes. Salmonella. Things growing randomly? What could go wrong?

Besides that…

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